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Sometimes I wonder about myself.
I’ve had a day and I learned more lessons on subject matter that I thought I possessed a doctorate’s in. Sometimes I wonder about myself. And I get distracted by something shiny, and just like that. I’ve lost my way. I surprised myself, I felt something today. It was a familiar feeling. I was sad,…
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Yet against all odds and logic, we still hope.
Today I taught my son how to do something. And I felt something inside I’ve not felt in 5 years. Alive, not the almost dead, barely holding on, crash team pounding on your chest alive. I thought all my chances to make him love me and maybe leave a ripple in his soul were stolen.…
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Arbitrary Turn
Any arbitrary turn along the way, I would be elsewhere. I would be different. They made the train tracks, through the steepest part of the Alps, before there was a train that could make the journey. They built them anyway. They knew, one day the train would come. I have never felt as though the…
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Wait a minute, I found it.
Wait a minute, I just figured it out. I thought I knew, hell, at one point, I thought I was. But more often than not, wait a minute , actually that’s a lie. Let’s not mince words. I never have. I claimed and said and convinced whole or half-heartedly proclaimed. Most embarrassing things come in…
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I saw a little old man today
A joyous revelation, I see him now. An old man. Today I saw a little old man. I’m going to tell you about the joys and astonishing first hand experience of dreading the time your eyes grow heavy, becoming tired. And your body being forced to sleep. And you know you’ll wake up again, with…
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Greenhouse
I built a greenhouse today It, unlike me hasn’t fallen apart yet It remains, like me empty I’ve nothing to fill it yet Like me But I built myself a greenhouse That seems to be a promise A beginning There will be a tomorrow.
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My dark side.
My dearest son. Today on Sunday, April 19 2020. Mommy lost control of her anger. Your daddy isn’t to blame for my behavior. I am. I’ve never been to that place before where I was so angry that I actually acted inappropriately and said things that I shouldn’t have. Mommy was so angry. For the…
I am AnxietyGirl; leaping to the worst possible conclusion in a single bound.
She held her breath and jumped. My personal blog.
